Courtesy of my sweet friend Edward, who always knows the right thing to say at the right time, and who always makes me laugh, even when I feel like crying. (I❤️ you!)
My friend MJ invited me to get a pedicure after work last night because I needed cheering up. We had a few glasses of wine and I spilled my guts to her. Afterward, she said I’m the dumbest smart woman she knows. Unfortunately, that’s the truth. She’s 15 years younger than me, but even she gets that 99% of people are out for their own best interests and don’t give a damn about you and yours. Even after all I’ve been through in life, I’m still quite naïve and very gullible. I suppose I should be proud that life hasn’t jaded me, but that doesn’t stop me from hurting.
I do believe in karma, both good karma and bad karma. I won’t ever understand some things in life, and that has to be okay. Let it go. I keep telling myself that. Let it go. Most of all, let go of the past. It’s over. Let it go.
I used to have this hanging on my computer at work and I could probably use it again:
God’s three answers to your prayers:
- Yes.
- Not yet.
- I have something better in mind.
July 24, 2015
Oh sweetheart, I am so sorry you are hurting. Most men suck, but I don’t have to tell you that, do I? Anyone who would make you cry isn’t worth your tears anyhow. You really are guileless and that’s a rare thing in this day and age. That’s one of your beautiful qualities, but it does leave you open to being hurt. I love you, let’s get together soon. xx
July 24, 2015
Love you too, Kat. I’ll be okay, aren’t I always? 😉 If nothing else, I’m disgustingly resilient. Then again, what choice do I have? Call me and we’ll have a girls day out soon. Or better yet, a girls day in. I’m sick to death of people in general right about now and keeping a low profile.
July 24, 2015
Please don’t tell me it is a guy!! That would just add salt to your wounds. Especially after having “the one we shall not name” still stalking you.
July 24, 2015
“The one we shall not name”– I like that. I mean, I don’t actually like it, but it’s an appropriate name. Makes me think of Voldemort in the Harry Potter books. (at least I still have my sense of humor! 🙂 ) I’m just too sensitive for my own good. And definitely too dense when it comes to understanding people. I think I should go back to sticking with books and dogs. (The four-legged kind, that is.)
July 24, 2015
I think at times we cast a similar shadow. Your words totally resonate within me. I’m still attempting to seek out and hold onto that elusive 1% who do care and who actually appreciate the goodness in people. I recently had a friend refer to me as an enabler. Ironically he had just made reference to his ex bf being an enabler for helping with the very same task years before….. registering a vehicle. Hmmm……I think to myself I can easily change my behaviour or rather my response the next time I receive a phone call asking for my assistance. I had considered myself a good friend who time and time again would lend a helping hand when those phone calls came. I believe my time is best spent with my sweet lil fur baby. She is always happy and excited to go on an adventure.
Here’s raising a glass to your future fur baby…..when the time is right and also to staying naive and a bit gullible.
July 25, 2015
I think we are kindred spirits, Tammy. You always go above and beyond to help others and many take advantage of your kind nature. You are indeed a good friend, I know that firsthand. 🙂 I sure do miss having you in Indy!
I think that the 1% does exist, it’s just really hard to find. I guess that’s part of staying naïve and believing (hoping) that people are innately good and caring about others. My soft heart has caused me more grief in life than I’d like to count, but I have to accept that it’s not going to change and see that as a good thing.